I love my work as the SCO Chairperson. May my colleagues love their jobs as well.To Sir Sharik, thank you very much.You're such a person to look up to. Handsome with wisdom. Small but terrible. To Miss Laxmi, please be kind to sir. Please don't be pessimistic about things. I don't understand why you are so competitive. May you learn to give allowance to everyone and be tolerant of others' shortcomings. May you learn to let things be. 

SUCCESS!! All's well that ends well. My first year in the position is perfect, in an unusual way. I've made mistakes and learned from them. Happy New Year!!! I will miss you 2010. Welcome 2011.

It is sad when time falls short when I am looking (or should I say staring) at you. In spite of that I always feel happiness and a little bit of bafflement whenever I do. Your distance from me doesn't matter. As long as I can see you, that's fine with me.You just don't know the way I look at you from my seat inside our classroom. It is really funny, but I honestly look for you.I just wish I am free to do this deed. I wish it is acceptable. I wish this is not wrong.

I always ask myself why the hell I am feeling .This is so weird. Either ways, you bring me happiness. Just stay the same.

I just want to watch everything that you do. It gives me happiness as well as disappointment ,because everytime I do that, time falls short and I have and I need to look away. Just stay the same, wont you?

       I saw you again walking towards me. It made me happy yet I don't have the courage to look at you even for 5 seconds. But believe me, I love doing it. Staring. I mean.  I always want to look at you. I always want to scrutinize and savor the view of every detail of you and what you do. I always want to do it. Always, everytime. I am just afraid that you'll know. I am afraid that you'll see it through my eyes. And it kills me. Yes, it really kills me. I don't want to lose even the little hold that I have over you. But my narcissistic self tells me to stop this. I love myself.

Hello my profile. I'm here visiting again.  I' m confused alright. Hope everything will go well. I mean everything...all the aspects in my life.  I'll just elaborate more when all is as clear as water. Sighs. 

Perhaps it's really is good to help a friend as well as to participate actively in my organization's activities. I don't know what was in me last night. I've felt so eager in editing articles for the ILAW literary folio. I even slept at already 4:30 in the morning.I just hope and pray that my almost helpful deed be appreciated.

I knew a bit of information about him.I cannot believe it that behind his smile is a not so beautiful background. See, we are getting closer! Thanks to what the activity for the centenary of SBS has brought. Hope we could have the chance to mingle and know each other more . As for me, I am so happy. Thank you..

I am so flattered to what Harvey is sharing to me. He even calls me Master for Master luv guru. Funny. But I really am thankful for his trust.

I've run into this article while surfing the net for my research work.  

"But I'm not sure - how do I know?"       http://www.avert.org/am-i-gay.htm

Being a teen can be a really confusing time for all sorts of reasons. You start thinking you've coped with puberty - and then all of a sudden, you get these new feelings. You start wondering - could I be gay?

There isn't a questionnaire you can fill in or a test to take! While your sexuality is developing, many teens will become attracted to someone of the same gender - it doesn't mean that you'll always be attracted to people of that gender. Some people can be quite old before they have their first same-sex attraction. For some people, the only way to know for sure is to wait and see. Other people seem to have known they were gay since they were really young - everyone's different.

“For many people who were brought up thinking they were straight, it can come as quite a surprise to realise that they're attracted to people of the same gender.”

“I have always known I was attracted to boys. I didn't quite know what it was, or that it wasn't something most boys did. But I always knew. I can remember back to 1st grade playing 'kiss chase' with the girls. Yet I was chasing WITH the girls after the boys.”Cody

For many people who were brought up thinking they were straight, it can come as quite a surprise to realise that they're attracted to people of the same gender. Sometimes something might happen to make you suddenly aware of these feelings - or you might have become aware of them slowly, over a long time.

It can sometimes seem like there's just too much to deal with - but don't worry, you don't have to make any decisions right now, and feelings often make more sense after some time has passed.

**Ha-ha! It's time for me to ponder.

Feeling good. It's really good to know that you are living with a purpose. That is, a purpose driven life. It's also good to have an inspiration,someone to motivate you, someone that makes even your stomach smile. I love this feeling. It is really euphoric.

I just wish we could be friends .But knowing that you know me with my reputation is enough for me. I will work hard to keep that good reputation for me to be, you know, somehow approachable and someone one can be proud being a friend.

May this feeling last a longer duration. Thank you. May you stay the same .May you not dislike me. Wish that someday when we get to meet each other in the road, you'll smile at me and say to yourself "He is my friend".

PS. I wish you could know how I feel.

I had my birthday party. Funny cause it seem not my birthday party at all. I'll never share a party with anyone ever again!

People out there greet me, yes. But some obviously is not sincere. Some even have the face to go there without knowing that it was my birthday! How would you feel if it happens to you? And the person whom you think will be the one there to be with you, to laugh with you and to have fun with you suddenly ignores and you don't know why? Some also thrusts into your brain that you should talk to that someone and reconcile to that person even when I don't know the real reason why the hell she was acting like that? How about if you know that the person you like doesn't want you to be near her?Yes!! IT WAS A DISASTER!

Well partly. Thanks to Harves and Justin..You make my birthday a good one.

Worried about my coming entrance exams for college. Can I pass it? I'm really not sure.Where to go? What university to enter?There are just this whirling queries that still are pending for me to answer.

Just finished the Leadership Seminar that my affiliation has spearheaded, I as the leader/chairperson. It is so tiring, plus the stress that it gave to everyone of my colleagues specially Sir Sharik. But in spite of these, I realized a very important thing about myself. I am better off as a follower than a leader. Well, looking forward to what the future has to bring.

I've made a new friend. His name is Symon, a freshman. He is so nice. Again looking forward to what the future has to bring. He has the aura that I cannot understand why I feel that I'm accepted and not doubted.

Sir Sharik tells me to reschedule my entrance exams for I need to facilitate the second batch of participants. I don't know what to do.

I feel the spark again. I want to court her but I just can't. Something stops me. My insecurities maybe. But I'm really awfully curious how to have girlfriend.

I'm trying to move on. Losing someone dear to you is really hard, especially when you know you'll never see her eye to eye, talk to her, laugh with her, ask her for advice, and  just everything that you do with her. I feel sad.

Perhaps, these emotions are being channeled through school activities.This day, my Prelims had just ended. I feel my results are not that satisfactory particularly Physics and Filipino. I am afraid I'll already get grade as low as 84. Oh my God, please help me to concentrate well in my studies and have a sharp memory. Guide me in the following exams which I know to be even more difficult than this one.

I'm also contemplating on what university and course to take at college. At present, I'm accomplishing the admission form for Ateneo de Manila University. I'm not sure if ADMU will be the most appropriate and apt choice but still I want to try .I wish I can pass the entrance examinations. I'll just worry about the rest when I had passed the exams.

Job as an SCO Chairperson is really not easy.I am really occupied with it now. Sir Sharik as the moderator is really a challenge as well as a privilege. I just wish he'll stay as patient as ever.

I am also thinking of what to write on my essay that have a topic "What are there significant experiences in your life/achievements you've realized that defined you as a person?" It is really hard to think of things to write, but I'll try my best.

My mom had a cardiac arrest.She was temporarily announced dead. The doctor asked my Papa to revive her or not. My Papa chose to still revive her. So she is alive, but with no pulse and blood pressure. I don't know what to feel. I must be sad, but really I'm not. I'm happy for her.....she will now be spared from the cruelty and injustice of this world. Goodbye Mama. Please always watch and guide us wherever you will go. I'll always be thankful to the genes that you installed in me, to the values that you had inculcated to me. I'll always treasure those unforgettable memories that we've done. I know that you are contented now that you are already with Him. Please don't forget us your children and most especially Papa. Please make him to understand that it's for the best.

My mom had a cardiac arrest. She was temporarily announced dead. The doctor asked my Papa to revive her or not. My Papa chose to still revive her. So she is alive, but with no pulse and blood pressure. I don't know what to feel. I must be sad, but really I'm not. I'm happy for her.....she will now be spared from the cruelty and injustice of this world. Goodbye Mama. Please always watch and guide us wherever you will go. I'll always be thankful to the genes that you installed in me, to the values that you had inculcated to me. I'll always treasure those unforgettable memories that we've done. I know that you are contented now that you are already with Him. Please don't forget us your children and most especially Papa. Please make him to understand that its for the best.

I'm so bad. I don't pay attention to Mama any more. I don't even talk to her or at least look at her in the eye. I just think it will be effective for me not to feel pain and sadness for her. She's just this pitiful cancer patient who cries like a baby whenever she has this attacks. I'm her son and I utterly don't wanna see her like that. I love her. I am really hurt but I don't know what to do. I wish she'll just recover and be well again. May God be with her, or if her agony still continues, I guess we have to let her go.There are times when I hear her say that she can not take it anymore. I hope that her strength and courage be strong as ever because them together with strong faith and God are the only hope.

i hate...

My mom is suffering from cancer.I just don't know if I am being bad but I don't like her having these certain attacks and i will be the one to take care of her.I just feel so stressed.I am a teenager, i want to enjoy life.I want to go and hang out, laugh out loud with my friends.