I
have been very busy lately. Deadlines are here and there. And it's
fine. What's not fine is me losing things that are valuable. I just have
this tendency to focus onto something so much that I tune off to some
other things that are important, say for instance my usb flashdrive and
worse, my coin purse with all my cash in it. How frustrating! Yeah
maybe its the jinx Friday the 13th has. But I need not experience this
again. I won't wait for the day that I lose more important things,
(please not my life) because of my lack of finesse and composure in
dealing with pressure.*Sighs.*
I remember Patrick J Adams giving this advice to law students of a university in Ireland -"Don't concentrate on something too much that you lose sight of what's in the sidelines." Amen to this.
And yet I can't put away the thought of the big "what ifs?" What if I haven't been like this or like that?What of I have been more careful and conscious of my environment?
God, I am going crazy. We're not affluent to afford furnishing this gadgets and cash when we needed it. We don't have money to squander. You just can imagine how ashamed I was to call my father telling him that I just lost all my cash and asked him to send me allowance two days after he did. I feel guilty.
I just hope that this won;t happen again. Please Lord, guide me with this.
Perhaps one positive realization of this day is that life is really way easier if you have friends. I have survived this "great loss" through their help and extra cash. (Yup, the loaned me cash because as you remember, my coin purse went missing for good."
Likewise, family will always be there in times of trouble. Not just because it's their moral obligation to do so, but because they are family. Period.
I pray to God to comfort me. I feel guilty and paranoid. I feel like I am the most irresponsible person in the world. Lord, hear my prayer.
I remember Patrick J Adams giving this advice to law students of a university in Ireland -"Don't concentrate on something too much that you lose sight of what's in the sidelines." Amen to this.
And yet I can't put away the thought of the big "what ifs?" What if I haven't been like this or like that?What of I have been more careful and conscious of my environment?
God, I am going crazy. We're not affluent to afford furnishing this gadgets and cash when we needed it. We don't have money to squander. You just can imagine how ashamed I was to call my father telling him that I just lost all my cash and asked him to send me allowance two days after he did. I feel guilty.
I just hope that this won;t happen again. Please Lord, guide me with this.
Perhaps one positive realization of this day is that life is really way easier if you have friends. I have survived this "great loss" through their help and extra cash. (Yup, the loaned me cash because as you remember, my coin purse went missing for good."
Likewise, family will always be there in times of trouble. Not just because it's their moral obligation to do so, but because they are family. Period.
I pray to God to comfort me. I feel guilty and paranoid. I feel like I am the most irresponsible person in the world. Lord, hear my prayer.
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