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Saturday, February 23, 2013

My Reasons to say YES to Duwang Camarines

 Perhaps House Bill 4728, also known as “An Act Creating the Province of Nueva Camarines”, now amended and replaced with HB 4820, is in its incubation period. Hence, it’s not as noisy as other issues we have today. Yet as a constituent that is directly affected by this, I think it would still be worthwhile for me to discuss about this social issue.

History has it that the term division is not new to Bicol Region. The same process occurred for several times already since its foundation on 1573. Bicol was then split into two namely Partido de Ibalon and Partido de Camarines on 1574. Come March 19, 1919, the latter was further divided into Camarines Sur and Camarines Norte which was acclaimed as separate provinces by a decree of the first Philippine Legislative. This is my ground in saying that time is already ripe for us to undergo yet a similar process – for progress, and for the next generations’ benefit.

For one, legal requirements under R.A. 7160 or the Local Government Code of 1991 are met; thus, qualifying the two consequent areas to be provinces themselves. In fact both shall easily qualify for first class status if ever.

This could also be logically advantageous in the sense that smaller areas of jurisdiction will make monitoring and management easier. It would facilitate administration of basic social services to reach remote and neglected areas. This in turn would provide opportunities for social and economic growth. In the same way, towns that will share the allocation of Internal Revenue Allotment (IRA) would be decreased; thus, will and must receive more of it.

Analogically, this is like our parents seeing us graduate high school and progress to college. They would do everything just to support us; hence, investing for our future to be as bright as they plan. I know this would be costly a venture, yet every investment entails this kind of sacrifice. This is why those who spearhead this action must prove themselves trustworthy enough to bear this risk.

So I say, let not self-interest impede, or mainly promote this move. Decision-making must be guided not by maintaining or keeping neither status nor reputation. Rather, by the welfare of the present and future constituents.

Friday, February 22, 2013

A Soliloquy

I failed. Or at least I will. I do not know for sure but things just come hard for me now. I want to cry while hugging my Mama. I miss her very much. I yearn for the warmth that I feel whenever I'm within her embrace. I think I am suicidal. Yes, there I said it. I am having this urge to end it all now. I know it's wrong and against God's will yet I am having this notion that it's good to do it now. I now understand people who commit, committed, or feel to commit it. It's just too much of a burden to carry. My brain cannot function well now. It's too heavy. I feel there is this metal in my brain that puts its weight to my skull. God, please help me.
 
I envy others. Their lives seem to be light and easy. Failing is nothing of a worry. They'll just retake or shift course if they did given their affluece that makes them capable to afford matriculation.It is hard being a scholar. It's like you have this anxiety behind every exam or quiz or projects. Thus, you push yourself to the limit to the point that you become too hard to yourself. I am not enjoying this. I am not living my life. I am not living my life happily and comfortably the way I want it to be. I want to laugh out loud without any worries of not eating later because I'm short of my allowance.I want to eat everytime I feel the urge to do so. I don't blame my father for this. Or at least this is what I am trying to instill in my head. That he is doing his best. It's just not good enough to afford the cost of living of a struggling student in a prestigious school. Yes, I feel like a fish out of water being in the university that I am now. There are times that I want to engage in co-curricular activities yet though I know that I have the capabilities to assume roles and do responsibilities, I can't be as sociable. They're just so high I can't stand them looking down on me.
 
I am lost. I am shrinking. I am falling into a deep ravine groping for somehing to cling to. I am giving up. Right now I just want to fall into the deep and stay ther not caring of what is the brightness up there somewhere. I just want to let time pass without knowing and awareness.
 
I want to be alive, for I am dead. Being so idealistic, ambitious and being a social climber as to enter this institution is a mistake, in fact lethal. I've unconsciously engaged myself to an act of ending my life.